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This programme contains very
strong language from the start

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{\an8}♪ I've got to tell you my tale

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{\an8}♪ Of how I loved and how I failed

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♪ I hope you understand... ♪

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Sorry, we're closed for
a private function.

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Well, tell them I'm staff.

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Look, my boyfriend sucks,

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and I need to drink
to forget he exists.

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That way, when I next see him,
it will be a nice surprise.

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Uh...
We went to see The Hangover II,

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and afterwards, all I said was
that men aren't as funny

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as they think they are,
and he kicked off.

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Why are men so wet?

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Why is it so fucking quiet in here?

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You're at a wake.

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Fuck!

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Wasn't anyone young or important,
was it?

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Nah, just my dad.

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Oh, my God.

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Oh, Eddie, I am so sorry
for your loss.

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You know
your dad loved you so much.

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Thanks, Auntie Bebs.

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He was always so proud of you.

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Oh, would you like a...?

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Double Jack and Coke, please, babes.

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I'll bring it over. Oh, thank you.

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I have crashed a funeral.

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I think it's called a wake
if there's booze.

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You don't happen to have
any kind of trap door

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you could open beneath me, or...?

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This isn't going to work.

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A highlights reel of our friendship
isn't going to make everything OK.

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I know, I know,
it's more complicated than...

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The fact that the way we met
is funny and adorable doesn't mean

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that we're supposed to be
in each other's lives forever.

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I know, Eddie.

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Wh... Why don't you just sit?

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Just... One sec.

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It's just the glass - it's not safe.

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SHE CHUCKLES
Oh, my God!

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Is that from when Ryan was
in his...?

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Woo!
♪ You're my white tiger... ♪

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Ooh! Whoa!

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Argh!
CRASH!

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Ooh, fuck!

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...Starlight Express era?

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I'm going to stay with Jay.
No, Eddie, Jay's...

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Jay moved to Arizona
to prepare for the apocalypse.

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Can I please borrow your phone?

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I need to google
"free accommodation, London".

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Well, that is a one-way ticket
to sex trafficking,

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so I'm going to say no.

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You promised me one night. I...

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SHE SIGHS

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BUCKET CLATTERS

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GLASS TINKLES

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"Of all the old-man
pubs

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"in all of mid-recession Dalston,

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"I walked into yours."

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You realise my dad's wake
might not be

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the hilarious memory
that you think it is.

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Oh...

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I wasn't the one laughing.

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SHE LAUGHS

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Ohh...!

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So, what I'm going to do
is quietly and respectfully

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tiptoe out of here,
and you never have to see me again.

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I don't think so.

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It'll just look weird
if you leave so quickly.

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Oh, come on, I...

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You need to work on
your mourner persona.

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Are you a relative?

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Ooh, secret family!

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Uh, er, maybe I could be

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like a young runaway
your dad took in.

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God, sorry, it's really hard
to work with the age difference.

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I haven't laughed in so long.

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My face actually hurts.

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SHE CHUCKLES

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Ooh.

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I have always depended

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on the kindness of strangers.
SHE LAUGHS

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Theodora! And it's over.

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Theodora, my glass has been empty
for an hour.

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I wish you'd go around
to do top-ups.

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I'm actually at my father's wake

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in more of a personal capacity,

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as much as I valued him
as an employer.

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But you're welcome to do it.

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Or Jay.

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No, your brother needed
to get back to work

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before the US markets open,

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and I need to be available
for people, Eddie, I...

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...am the widow.

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You divorced him 15 years ago.

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Who's this?

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Uh... Maureen Johnson.

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I'm a good friend of... the deceased.

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Cam.
SHE CLEARS THROAT

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Cam.

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The Deceased was his golf nickname.

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Cameron didn't play golf.

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Funny,
he never mentioned an ex-wife.

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Not once in all our... golf times.

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Well...

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Ooh, brave to go after my mum.
We've just met.

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Are you two close?

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Like sisters!
SHE CHUCKLES

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Buffet emergency.
Sorry, but we are headed

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straight for a sausage roll drought,
Eddie.

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Now, I can go to the big Sains...

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No, it wasn't sausage rolls. No?

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No. Dad hated sausage rolls.

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He said they looked like flaky
dicks. It was...

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We are headed straight for
a Scotch egg drought, Eddie.

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Now, I can go
to the big Sainsbury's.

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Will, this is Maureen.

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Maggie... Donovan.

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Enchante! This is Maggie.

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She's a funeral-crasher.

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This is my best friend, Will.

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Ew! Your best friend is a man?!

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Thank God I'm here.
THEY CHUCKLE

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You have to admit, though,

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it felt like we were destined
to meet.

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Why? Because you made me laugh
when I was sad?

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Whitney always said...
Oh, come on!

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She always said you use fun
as a tool to keep me captive.

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Well, that's insane.

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Her point was that
you deflect with jokes

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to avoid the real shit.

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I don't avoid the real shit,
Eddie, I can't.

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I've just learnt that
having a sense of humour

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about that kind of stuff is
sort of crucial for survival.

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Sitting in the misery won't make
the misery go away.

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I know I might not be your classic
version of a support system,

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but I do support you.

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Like when you first took over...

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Wet Mouth!

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Is that a new nickname? It's gross.

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It's what you should rename the pub.

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No-one wants to get fucked up
in the Red Lion.

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Lions are orange.

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I haven't decided yet.

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Like, I'd have to leave law school.

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Eddie, anyone can be a lawyer,

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but not everyone gets to run
a cool bar.

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It's not cool.
Yeah, but it could be.

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All we have to do is, like,

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get someone from Vice
to DJ once a month

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and make sure the bathrooms
are disgusting.

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What are you doing?

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Just come up here.

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Have you got any ciggies? Mm.

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Make a wish, bitch!

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It's like you're campaigning
to be the mayor of my life.

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None of this is relevant.

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And stop doing that!

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THUMP!
It's fucking pointless.

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Being your friend is
hard fucking work, Maggie.

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You're just ignoring
all the times you...

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Hey! Are you OK? You look hungover.

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I'm fine. But thank you for
saying I look like shit.

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CLAMOUR

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Oh, sorry...
Excuse me!

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I asked for two glasses,
you've only given me one.

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Can you charge my phone?

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I had zero living family
who could support me

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in any real way. I know.

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And then suddenly dropped
on my lap was

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this massive responsibility.

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The bar...? You.

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Robert Downey Jr - unconfirmed,
but I see it.

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Carrie Fisher - legend.

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Vincent van Gogh - no way!

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Do not cut off your ear.

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I will try.

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Mel Gibson - they can't all be good.

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Kurt Cobain...

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I know you girls say having
a disgusting toilet

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makes the bar cooler,

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but there's got to be limits
to that, don't we think?

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Can you just leave out the ones
who've killed themselves?

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Yeah. Uh...

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Hmm... Buh-buh-buh...

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Great.

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Sinead O'Connor. What about her?

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I'm finding cool celebrities
with bipolar disorder

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to cheer Maggie up. Mm.

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Well, the first thing to do
is find the best treatment,

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get you into a routine.

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I think moving in with me would do
you a world of good

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in that respect. No way.

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Just while you... No.

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But, darling, I don't want you
to be alone while you're...

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What if something...?

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I can stay with her for a bit.

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No, it's fine. No, no, no,

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it'll be a nice change from
upstairs.

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I've got so many rats now,

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I might need to build
some sort of home for them.

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Well...

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Is that cool?

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Yeah.

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Grand.

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That's settled.

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Do you have any jobs going?

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I can't do this any more.

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My God.

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The six months that Anya worked here
were the drunkest of my life.

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Yeah, I know. I lived with you
for most of them.

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Right.

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That must have been a lot for you,
I get it.

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You don't get it, Maggie,
how could you?

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I do. No, you don't!

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You have never had to be responsible
for anyone else

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in your whole life.

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Where are you...? Pissing!

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SHE SIGHS

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SHE SIGHS

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How's it looking in there?

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Something or someone has given birth
in the sink

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but other than that, about the same.

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Look, I know you think
this friendship has been

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about you looking after me,
and I get that, but...

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...I look after you, too.
No, you don't.

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I do, Eddie, just because
my care looks different to yours...

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Name one time you've looked
after me successfully.

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Other than today?

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Maggie... Fine.

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SHE SCOFFS

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Exactly!
Well, just give me a minute!

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OK... How about that time you...?

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They're honestly not that bad.

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OK. Go home. I'll run the bar.

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That's not what happened!

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They're honestly not that bad.

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OK. Go home. I'll run the bar.

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My point still stands.

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You're making it sound
like a bigger deal than it was,

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because you always change
the narrative to suit you.

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No, I don't.
You change so many details.

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Eddie...

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My memory is fucked from
years of being on lithium.

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I'm sorry. It's not intentional,

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it's not malicious, I just...

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I can't remember every detail
of every moment.

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And that makes me sad sometimes.
But, yeah,

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it can't be helped, like.

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It's not on purpose.

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I am sorry if it was too much.

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I'm sorry if I leant on you.
I honestly didn't know

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I was doing it. I just didn't
have the tools to...

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I didn't have any tools,

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It's like I was trying to fix
an engine

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with my bare hands and no YouTube.

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I'm sorry you had to be like the...

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The Farmer Hoggett to my Babe.

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PHONE VIBRATES
LOUD MUSIC

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CHUCKLING

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That's my second Regina
of the night.

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This party shags!

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PHONE VIBRATES

264
00:11:48,040 --> 00:11:50,960
Hey! Get off your phone
and start serving, will ya?!

265
00:11:52,680 --> 00:11:55,119
Sometimes I think it was more like

266
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the Babe leading the Babe.

267
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OK, maybe my shitty memory only
remembers the good things,

268
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but...

269
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...the night you won this,

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when we...

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MUSIC THUMPS
CHATTER

272
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He is definitely
the best shag I've ever had,

273
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including women,

274
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which is VERY unusual!

275
00:12:47,840 --> 00:12:49,159
Well, congratulations, Owen.

276
00:12:49,160 --> 00:12:50,799
It's all about the knuckles.

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The knuckles!

278
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Not the knuckles!

279
00:12:54,680 --> 00:12:57,239
It would be classic Anya
to like that, though.

280
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You made a cute speech.

281
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Did I? Can't remember.

282
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Oh, come on. No, I don't.

283
00:13:02,560 --> 00:13:05,079
I told you, I'm basically
Dory from Finding Nemo,

284
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if she also had a mood disorder.

285
00:13:08,080 --> 00:13:09,359
You said something like...

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GLASS CLINKS
Hear ye, hear ye.

287
00:13:11,800 --> 00:13:16,279
I have known Miss Theodora Rushton
for six years now,

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and in that time she has made
my life infinitely better.

289
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Oh, it's a serious one.

290
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On top of that,

291
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she has single-handedly
turned Wet Mouth

292
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into the three-time motherfucking...

293
00:13:28,800 --> 00:13:33,159
Hackney Online Bar Of The Year!

294
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ALL CHEER

295
00:13:35,720 --> 00:13:36,840
Eddie...

296
00:13:37,840 --> 00:13:39,999
...I have seen you deal
with every setback,

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every angry, drunk man,

298
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every pile of puke in the bathroom,
like it's nothing.

299
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But I know - we know -
it's not nothing.

300
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It's amazing.

301
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Eddie,

302
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you are the coolest,

303
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strongest, smartest person I know.

304
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And I really fucking love you.
No, I can't.

305
00:14:00,640 --> 00:14:02,599
No, you have to feel feelings.
No, I don't!

306
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Tickle her until she feels feelings.

307
00:14:04,360 --> 00:14:06,399
Must feel feelings!

308
00:14:06,400 --> 00:14:07,999
Feelings! Ah! Anya!

309
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That was gorgeous, babe.

310
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Aw, thanks!

311
00:14:12,800 --> 00:14:15,079
Sorry, I don't want to be rude,
but who are you?

312
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I'm Ryan.

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I was sat at the table
next to you at the awards,

314
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and thought you guys seemed more
fun.

315
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Ryan in the ho-o-o-ouse!

316
00:14:26,560 --> 00:14:29,479
Ryan in the hizz-zzy!

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BOTH CHUCKLE

318
00:14:32,000 --> 00:14:34,119
I can't believe
that's how we met him,

319
00:14:34,120 --> 00:14:36,879
and now that bitch is literally
the executor of my will.

320
00:14:36,880 --> 00:14:39,479
I know, he could have been
a killer or a furry,

321
00:14:39,480 --> 00:14:40,560
for all we knew.

322
00:14:42,880 --> 00:14:44,759
That's not a great example,
by the way.

323
00:14:44,760 --> 00:14:45,879
What?

324
00:14:45,880 --> 00:14:46,919
Of you being an amazing friend.

325
00:14:46,920 --> 00:14:48,519
It doesn't really support
your argument.

326
00:14:48,520 --> 00:14:49,559
My argument?

327
00:14:49,560 --> 00:14:51,319
Yeah, cos that night ended
when you...

328
00:14:51,320 --> 00:14:53,199
Is she on any medication?
Do we know?

329
00:14:53,200 --> 00:14:54,959
SHE VOMITS
Hello?!

330
00:14:54,960 --> 00:14:57,319
Medication? Uh, y-yeah.

331
00:14:57,320 --> 00:14:58,760
We're not on drugs!

332
00:15:00,240 --> 00:15:01,919
I was on new meds.

333
00:15:01,920 --> 00:15:04,039
I wasn't supposed to drink
on them, but...

334
00:15:04,040 --> 00:15:06,879
But you did. And I don't get
to be angry about that

335
00:15:06,880 --> 00:15:08,959
because it's like,
"Oh, Maggie has bipolar.

336
00:15:08,960 --> 00:15:10,759
"She can't help it.
It's not her fault."

337
00:15:10,760 --> 00:15:12,479
So then I have to bury my feelings.

338
00:15:12,480 --> 00:15:13,599
I never asked you to bury...

339
00:15:13,600 --> 00:15:16,159
That night was supposed to be
about Dad,

340
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so he could see
that everything was OK.

341
00:15:20,200 --> 00:15:21,639
I didn't know that.

342
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Cos it's stupid.

343
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He can't see anything.

344
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He's dead.

345
00:15:30,640 --> 00:15:32,120
Your feelings aren't stupid, Eddie.

346
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It matters to me if I've hurt you.

347
00:15:36,720 --> 00:15:39,360
There's always a reason
you can't show up for me, Maggie.

348
00:15:40,840 --> 00:15:43,040
If you're referring
to what happened last year...

349
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If you're talking about
what happened last year...

350
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...I had lithium poisoning.

351
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I had too much lithium in my blood

352
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because my doctor prescribed
the wrong amount.

353
00:16:08,560 --> 00:16:09,840
And that's the truth.

354
00:16:11,120 --> 00:16:14,439
I was trying really hard
to get better when that happened.

355
00:16:14,440 --> 00:16:15,800
I still am.

356
00:16:17,080 --> 00:16:18,719
It's a lot of work, it's every day,

357
00:16:18,720 --> 00:16:20,360
but I am so much better now.

358
00:16:22,560 --> 00:16:23,959
You don't seem better.

359
00:16:23,960 --> 00:16:25,999
Sorry, Eddie,
but you don't know that.

360
00:16:26,000 --> 00:16:27,479
You haven't been here.

361
00:16:27,480 --> 00:16:29,039
And when you've been here,
you've been...

362
00:16:29,040 --> 00:16:30,680
Brainwashed by a con artist?

363
00:16:33,520 --> 00:16:34,520
Yeah.

364
00:16:36,880 --> 00:16:38,080
You must feel...

365
00:16:39,720 --> 00:16:41,920
I can't think of a better word
than insane...

366
00:16:45,720 --> 00:16:46,800
I know what that's like...

367
00:16:48,560 --> 00:16:50,720
...when your reality turns out
not to be real.

368
00:16:52,280 --> 00:16:53,560
It happened to me.

369
00:16:55,160 --> 00:16:58,239
It follows me every day.
I try and forget it and...

370
00:16:58,240 --> 00:16:59,359
...I can't.

371
00:16:59,360 --> 00:17:01,360
BANGING ON DOOR

372
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Call an ambulance, for God's sake!

373
00:17:07,000 --> 00:17:08,879
Didn't you know she was out there?!

374
00:17:08,880 --> 00:17:10,519
Oh, God, I...

375
00:17:10,520 --> 00:17:13,159
Come on, darling.
You'll be all right.

376
00:17:13,160 --> 00:17:14,599
You'll be all right, love.

377
00:17:14,600 --> 00:17:17,039
Gillian wasn't there.

378
00:17:17,040 --> 00:17:19,120
Yes, she was, I called her.
No, you didn't.

379
00:17:21,400 --> 00:17:22,400
Oh!

380
00:17:24,240 --> 00:17:26,200
Let's go over there. Here we go.

381
00:17:27,680 --> 00:17:30,319
OK. Take it easy.
SHE MOANS

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OK.

383
00:17:32,520 --> 00:17:34,079
Here you go.

384
00:17:34,080 --> 00:17:35,400
OK...

385
00:17:39,880 --> 00:17:41,640
Hi, Gillian. It's Will.

386
00:17:42,920 --> 00:17:45,519
Um, can you meet me
at Homerton Hospital?

387
00:17:45,520 --> 00:17:46,880
He's never said anything.

388
00:17:56,160 --> 00:17:57,320
How do you know that?

389
00:17:59,200 --> 00:18:00,720
How do you know what happened?

390
00:18:02,480 --> 00:18:05,919
He called me from the hospital
while I was at the airport.

391
00:18:05,920 --> 00:18:06,960
Oh.

392
00:18:08,960 --> 00:18:10,720
So, you knew before you even left.

393
00:18:12,480 --> 00:18:15,039
You knew I'd been poisoned,
and you didn't even drop me a DM.

394
00:18:15,040 --> 00:18:17,000
It's...
Is that how much you hate me?

395
00:18:18,440 --> 00:18:21,119
I missed your abortion
because I was poisoned.

396
00:18:21,120 --> 00:18:22,519
But you abandoned me

397
00:18:22,520 --> 00:18:24,319
because you wanted to go
on holiday.

398
00:18:24,320 --> 00:18:25,599
That's not it!

399
00:18:25,600 --> 00:18:26,959
It kind of seems like it is!

400
00:18:26,960 --> 00:18:28,399
I had to go, Maggie, I had to.

401
00:18:28,400 --> 00:18:29,639
Why?!

402
00:18:29,640 --> 00:18:31,999
So you could go and smoke weed
with Mind Control Barbie?

403
00:18:32,000 --> 00:18:33,919
No, because I was fucked!

404
00:18:33,920 --> 00:18:36,799
I was so fucked
and I'd just lost everything.

405
00:18:36,800 --> 00:18:38,639
And I didn't know how to cope
with that.

406
00:18:38,640 --> 00:18:41,159
And I couldn't stay here
and sit in the mess of it,

407
00:18:41,160 --> 00:18:42,600
because I'm fucking weak.

408
00:18:44,360 --> 00:18:46,639
I'm so weak that instead
of dealing with my shit,

409
00:18:46,640 --> 00:18:49,119
I found someone who told me
they could make it better

410
00:18:49,120 --> 00:18:50,479
and I let them tell me
what to think.

411
00:18:50,480 --> 00:18:52,600
I mean, what the fuck?!

412
00:18:54,280 --> 00:18:56,479
I know I'm not soft,

413
00:18:56,480 --> 00:18:59,039
and I know I don't seem like
someone to be gentle with,

414
00:18:59,040 --> 00:19:00,320
but I am.

415
00:19:01,960 --> 00:19:04,719
My sad looks very different
to your sad,

416
00:19:04,720 --> 00:19:06,279
but it's still very real.

417
00:19:06,280 --> 00:19:09,480
And it still fucking hurts.

418
00:19:12,920 --> 00:19:14,120
I'm a mess!

419
00:19:15,240 --> 00:19:17,440
And a fraud and a loser.

420
00:19:19,040 --> 00:19:21,799
You don't want me, Maggie,
I can't help you.

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00:19:21,800 --> 00:19:23,119
SHE CRIES

422
00:19:23,120 --> 00:19:26,120
♪ Remember how it used to be

423
00:19:28,080 --> 00:19:31,359
♪ When the sun would fill
the sky... ♪

424
00:19:31,360 --> 00:19:34,359
So, thank you so much
for having me.

425
00:19:34,360 --> 00:19:36,119
Oh, you're more than welcome.

426
00:19:36,120 --> 00:19:39,319
Theodora,
can you fetch the microphone?

427
00:19:39,320 --> 00:19:41,640
I think now's the time
for my Amazing Grace.

428
00:19:42,880 --> 00:19:44,600
Oh, damn, I'm sad to miss that.

429
00:19:46,280 --> 00:19:48,679
You know,
I thought this was going to be

430
00:19:48,680 --> 00:19:50,200
the worst day of my life.

431
00:19:52,160 --> 00:19:53,400
And it wasn't.

432
00:19:54,880 --> 00:19:57,039
And I think that might be
because of you,

433
00:19:57,040 --> 00:19:59,079
you know, distracting me

434
00:19:59,080 --> 00:20:01,279
with how insanely inappropriate
you are.

435
00:20:01,280 --> 00:20:02,759
SHE CHUCKLES

436
00:20:02,760 --> 00:20:06,600
♪ All I wish is gone away... ♪

437
00:20:07,760 --> 00:20:09,479
Any time.

438
00:20:09,480 --> 00:20:13,040
♪ All I wish is gone away

439
00:20:14,600 --> 00:20:18,599
♪ All I wish is gone away... ♪

440
00:20:18,600 --> 00:20:21,480
SHE CRIES
I'm so sorry.

441
00:20:24,320 --> 00:20:25,680
Sorry, Maggie.

442
00:20:30,840 --> 00:20:32,840
SHE SOBS

443
00:20:40,040 --> 00:20:41,280
Mm-hm...

444
00:20:43,640 --> 00:20:45,480
Ugh. Whew.

445
00:20:51,040 --> 00:20:52,720
So, we're both Babe.

446
00:20:55,040 --> 00:20:57,160
Two pigs are better than one, anyway.

447
00:20:58,320 --> 00:20:59,440
Mm.

448
00:21:01,960 --> 00:21:03,360
Hey... Mm-hm?

449
00:21:06,320 --> 00:21:07,839
Get behind the bar.

450
00:21:07,840 --> 00:21:10,399
SHE SCOFFS

451
00:21:10,400 --> 00:21:12,519
I'm not really
in the mood to make cocktails.

452
00:21:12,520 --> 00:21:14,879
Oh, come on, just...
Just trust me. Come on.

453
00:21:14,880 --> 00:21:16,600
Oh... OK.

454
00:21:22,320 --> 00:21:24,759
SHE SNIFFLES

455
00:21:24,760 --> 00:21:27,599
DOOR OPENS

456
00:21:27,600 --> 00:21:29,600
DOOR CLOSES

457
00:21:37,960 --> 00:21:40,600
Hi! Uh, could I get a drink?

458
00:21:41,960 --> 00:21:44,399
I'm on the run from a screening
of The Hangover II,

459
00:21:44,400 --> 00:21:46,439
which I inexplicably attended
with the ex

460
00:21:46,440 --> 00:21:48,479
who told me to go on the Dukan Diet.

461
00:21:48,480 --> 00:21:51,840
Hey! This doesn't happen to be
your dad's wake, does it?

462
00:21:54,080 --> 00:21:55,320
Ah...

463
00:21:58,280 --> 00:21:59,839
It is, yeah,

464
00:21:59,840 --> 00:22:02,879
but, uh, please don't let that
stop you hanging out here

465
00:22:02,880 --> 00:22:04,280
for hours.

466
00:22:07,600 --> 00:22:10,239
So, what, we're just going
to start again?

467
00:22:10,240 --> 00:22:13,040
No. I mean, we can't.

468
00:22:14,640 --> 00:22:16,799
What's done is done, like.

469
00:22:16,800 --> 00:22:17,920
I'm a nightmare.

470
00:22:19,120 --> 00:22:20,719
You're a nightmare.

471
00:22:20,720 --> 00:22:22,200
There's no cure for that.

472
00:22:23,640 --> 00:22:24,880
But...

473
00:22:27,640 --> 00:22:29,600
We can decide
that we love each other.

474
00:22:31,600 --> 00:22:32,960
That we need each other.

475
00:22:34,240 --> 00:22:35,320
Move on...

476
00:22:36,760 --> 00:22:38,040
...together.

477
00:22:40,600 --> 00:22:42,080
Can I move in with you?

478
00:22:43,480 --> 00:22:44,600
Of course.

479
00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:47,440
And everything will be all right?

480
00:22:51,640 --> 00:22:53,360
You're all I have now, Maggie.

481
00:23:25,440 --> 00:23:29,519
♪ If I had words

482
00:23:29,520 --> 00:23:37,000
♪ To make a day for you

483
00:23:38,400 --> 00:23:43,199
♪ I'd sing you a morning... ♪

484
00:23:43,200 --> 00:23:44,439
I've got you.

485
00:23:44,440 --> 00:23:49,559
♪ ..golden and new

486
00:23:49,560 --> 00:23:57,560
♪ I would make this day
last for all time

487
00:24:02,320 --> 00:24:10,600
♪ Give you a night deep in moonshine

488
00:24:18,480 --> 00:24:27,600
♪ If I had words to make
the day for you... ♪